This is dedicated to one of my greatest friend, a letter from my long gone friend.
It’s a strange idea, to write a letter to a letter. I never really talked to you, nor did I ever write to you. I only heard and read what you told me. I wanted you to know more about me, just as I know about you.
My story begins with my story. My life was always cold and my parents always told me to trust myself. They told me to never be fazed by anybody else but you. I believed their words, and tried to live like I'm truthful and faithful to myself. My trust for myself was a very fragile being that crumbled easily.
My middle school days were series of accidents I did not really expect. Accidents caused by me were perfect for bringing my reputation and friends away. In the end nothing was there except for those who were nice enough to stay, or those who thought I was someone worth staying with. I was thankful to those who stayed. They at least gave me a hope that this world was not as bad as it seemed. Those hopes crumbed too. They left me as they felt that they were isolating themselves by becoming friends with me.
After all those years, all I had was you, written by my formal best friend. You were one of the first letters I’ve ever received from a friend and also one of the longest. You were mostly enclosed in dark and dusty spaces. I sometimes didn’t need you. I’m sorry for showing those dumb tear-streaming faces. You probably didn’t want to see anything like that but I needed you when I needed help.
You may ask, “Why am I that important to you? I’m just a fragment of paper with bunch of words written on.” You are nothing but memories of my friend. That’s nothing but reality. Your words are like the silent prayers. Your words echo through my hopeless mind and breathe life into me. You were the rope that I held onto, when I was lost and slipping.
I hope you understand why you had to be soaked in my tears and my cries. I hope you realize why you had to stay in the dark for so long. I hope you still treat me as your writer did. I need you a lot.